Weight: 184 — 184 (0.0 lbs)
Savings: $3134.59 + $1708.67 (day job)
Days without soda: 0
Quick turnaround but I wanted to get something down this week.
The good, the bad and the fugly: My diet continues to be awful. Which makes me feel like garbage. My digestive system is in the toilet (literally) from eating so poorly. I have been spending too much money on trash food. I have been having too much pizza, too much soda and too many sweets.
It honestly feels like I am an addict of sorts in that I cannot moderate junk food, especially sweets. It’s always all or nothing with me. I’m concerned that almost every time I relax a bit on what I eat, I go crazy and undermine whatever progress I made. Every. Damn. Time. I have to figure out how to stop the yo-yo dieting. That could be a project for my “100 Days” perhaps?
My “100 Days” starts on Tuesday and I want/need to head into year 41 in damn good mental, physical and emotional shape. With that in mind, I am choosing three goals to focus on in the coming months:
- Give up sweets, soda and fried foods. Track calories for the 100 days, even if it is sometimes inaccurate — something is better than nothing.
- Get my running base down and get back to being fit. Lift weights at least 3x a week.
- Job search 25 minutes a day for at least five days a week.
100 days is about 14 weeks. I think I can lose 20 lbs, get a good running base for my fall marathon and find a new job. At the very least I can eat better, get fitter, and make progress toward a new line of work.
My last day of junk food will be Tuesday, then it’s game on after that.
To talk about work for a moment: I REALLY want a new job. This year has been awful and I truly, truly want a change. I am desperate for it.
The hard part is that I don’t feel like I have a lot of marketable, transferable skills, so it is hard to envision what else I could do and where I could go. I know, at least for now, I am looking for any sort of change. I want to get out of my immediate situation even if it is a lateral move. I think this would be a good way to buy time for a more drastic change. The issue is that I dislike the day job so much that I have a hard time getting up the energy to make a change. Having two jobs doesn’t help, either.
Regarding finances: my savings looks a bit worse than usual, but I had to pay for a bunch of things at work that I should get reimbursed for soon. The silver lining is that I can absorb the financial hits these days because I have a second job. It’s a pain in the ass to work so much to stay afloat, but it’s nice to know that I can take a few shots and not have to put anything on my credit card. Emergency savings is a hell of a thing.
For exercise, I didn’t do much of anything. I ran once this week and that was it. Blech. No gym. No Brazilian jiu jitsu. I am starting to feel overweight and bloated. I guess the good news is that I didn’t gain any weight, but 184 is simply way too high. It sucks to put weight back on but here we are. Next week I will run + gym at least 5 days. I will have to start easy but I will start.
I also haven’t been able to do anything for a job search or career change or side hustle. This week was tough because I had essentially four half days at work plus I was at my second job two nights. That doesn’t leave a lot of time to job hunt. Next week looks much more tranquil, so I will get back to spending at least 25 minutes a day job searching.
Overall: It was a trash week. No progress was made in finances, diet, health or career. I am on the cusp of getting back into the game, however, with next Wednesday day one of my “100 Days.” I’m looking for FDR style changes that are sustainable. I want to hit 41 in good shape, mentally, emotionally and physically. I know what to do, now it’s time to do it.
No tie in thematically with this song, I just really am in a hair metal mood lately.